Lacy Danes - Erotic Romance Author

»Thursday, November 05, 2009:
Any Day Now...
(I stole this idea from my dear friend Lilli Feisty. I am sure she won’t mind…Here is my Any Day Now…)

Any Day Now...

I will change the patterns that seem to circle in my life for the better.
I will learn the lessons I am meant to learn.
I will take the dog for a walk longer than around the block.
My kids laughter will fill every room.
I will be 36… again.
I will stare up at the moon and feel powerful.
I will go to yoga or belly dance.
I will feel the beat of horse hooves pound under me as I gallop through a field.
My kids will put their toys away.
My stairs project will be complete.
I will have lunch with my girlfriends.
I will love a partner without protective boundaries.
I will take a trip to Portland and have hot coco with a dear friend.
I will start saving for a trip to London. (I have never been)
I’ll stop procrastinating and make my dreams happen.
I’ll finish the story I have been writing.
I will laugh so hard I pee.
I will learn to organize.
My promised trip to see my parents will be real.
I will tickle someone until tears rundown their face from laughter.
I’ll spontaneously go… somewhere…anywhere.
My worry that I am not good enough will go away.
I’ll lose 5 lbs.
My debt will be paid off.
My daughter will eat fish.
My son will ride his bike without training wheels.
My gut and heart will tell me what to do instead of my head.
I will write my best work.
Trust will be second nature for me again.
I will stop fearing a leap of faith.
I will simply be me.

Hugs and Kisses,
Lacy.

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»Wednesday, August 13, 2008:
Goals to improve my life.
Thoughts invade my mind of late. Good and bad. The chaos and negative thoughts pressed upon me weigh me down. Being a positive person by nature, and a bit of a procrastinator, months of chaos and heavy needs have my soul demanding a change.

I feel stronger than I have in a long time, so I know whatever needs to be done, now is the time. I sat down tonight and came up with this list.

Goals to improve my life. Silly I know. Actions are what actually change things, but this is my start.

Cut back on the amount of coffee and alcohol I drink.
Concentrate on the import things. Friends- family- what makes me true to myself.
Exercise.
Stop living as if the past is so very now and present.
Take chances on love, my writing, and other things in life.
Do not be afraid to make a change to find happiness.
Stop fearing, fear.
Do one thing each day to grow.
Try to learn something from everyone.
Tell people often what they mean to me.
Stand up for my boundaries and what I truly wish in my life, there is nothing wrong in wanting what I wish.

I know there are probably more items I should put down, but I look at that list, and it intimidates me. Scares me. The things listed are not simple things like buying a more efficient car or choosing to cut fat out of my diet.(Though I know cutting fat is hard! I so love my butter.) What is listed above are big emotional changes. Gulp.

Lacy.

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»Monday, June 30, 2008:
Eek it has been a month!
Sorry I have not posted in so long I am in such a strange weird place at the moment… most of my life I am so very delighted with … I am happy with my relationship with my kids… happy with my writing… happy with my home…happy with my social life… Work is work but it could be much worse…I am dating a wonderful man… and have friends I would give my soul for.

Yet I keep having theses in tense panic filled dreams… where I am struggling with my inner soul and what the world thinks should be done… Dreams where I have lost opportunities to see my dreams become reality after traveling the hard path to success… these dreams make me think… did I make a mistake in a decision I made? Do I feel I should be punished for something I have done? Do I feel my life struggles are punishment for something I did? Or are my fears simply grabbing for control of me.

I am not typically someone who is easily suspicious/fearful. I am easy going and drama and such flip my world on it side. The lessoned drama in the past four months has been a relief of late yet something feels missing…
It is not a lack of spark…
or desire…
it is not a lack of love…
it is not an unhappiness of soul.
I struggle with what it is my gut feels is missing and I have no idea how to figure out what it is.

My fear is I believe that past mistrust/disrespect and the fear of being made a fool for pushing those things aside plague me. Well that and the 10lbs that seem to not want to budge from my body since February of this year. Frown.

I have adored not being attached to the computer. It has leveled my life like nothing has in some time. Real people interactions are so much more satisfying than cyber ones.

Yet there is still this longing… this strange discomfort with what is now/present… I don’t know what will come of all these dreams and intense deep thoughts… I do know that it is something that I need to work through in order to find that contentment and ease of mind that seems to be eluding me.

Hope your world is calm and content.

Hugs and kisses,
Lacy.

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